Stillness

I had awaken this morning with a pulling to share my weekly heart presents.
You see this week was a week of reflection of a decade of one of the chapters of my life.
I experienced loosing my voice for the first time in my life.I found myself days in this entanglement of scary/peaceful stillness.
I heard a voice that spoke soft and clear that said “ You have a Voice and you have not been using it!)
That was the third time that voice came to me and I forced myself to sit and write today and see what would come out.
I’m one of those that believed my story that I can’t write and I have a hard time putting to paper what I’m trying to get across.
In my work as a Coach ,I point others to their bull crap stories and beliefs that they carry around and how our mind is so convincing.
This week I connected deeply to a new path to emotional freedom by being forced into deep stillness.
It did not come to a shock to me that my X husband passed, since he had been in a care facility for two years with Parkinson’s then into Alzheimer’s.
What shocked me was while on a short walk on the beach I had a tide of feelings for him that my mind took me through.Some of these great memories that I had apparently suppressed.In a quick flash I allowed myself to ponder on those joyous times that we shared.
A down poring of tears came flooding out,many beautiful memories had been shadowed by the darkness of still lingering pain/ resentment that I thought had disappeared.
So when my Ego quickly took me to the ugly side, I simply allowed it and turned around to walk back and looking for shells to make memory crosses for our children.
I had a profound Spiritual experience of hearing this soothing voice that said”I AM SORRY”.
I knew in the depths of my heart energy that those words came from a Pure Consciousness of his eternal being.
We are all Blessed and Deserving to receive these Spiritual gifts if we allow ourselves to be in complete stillness and open hearted for allowing to receive.
P.S. We don’t need to loose our voice to be there, just quiet 🤫 it!
THIS IS THE START TO SOMETHING BEAUTIFUL,
All my heart,
Debi💛💫
The swell of hurt goes out to sea
AS
The surge of pure consciousness rushes in
DM